I want to give hope; but I find it kinda hard to find it myself.
Said a lot things, and I say what I mean... but you can’t see demons dine on my health
My pride seems so incurable. My life can’t get much worse.
This crack ain’t getting bigger I figure... that this mask is just too durable
-So give ear to song, now what do you hear? -So near to the sound, now what do you seek?
Tell me, God, tell me what do I need- tell me what do I need ‘till I feel complete.
...But I fall once more. Back to my feet with an oath; I swore
I swore that I never fall again -but all of it was said many times before
(Legitimate) I want that kind of a smile. (Diligent) I want that kind of a faith
(Honesty) Shine over lies I revile. (Honestly) -I think I’m kind of insane
....Wander the plain, in a place never been... (Floating) but I lost my place in the wind
Weather and the rain fell down the terrain... blue like Etta James, in a space full of a sin
--(We're strangers again) but my heart knows her; with a hard head growing off my shoulders
(False heart) two parts in a con art; too dark; too smart for a soft heart
Two faces fight for my motives... Like my soul’s bipolar.
In the end, sequals always suck so yo! -Let’s just start over
Over and over and over again...
...So how many times do I gotta to start over?
How many times did I fail You God? How many times did I promise You better?
Why have I not gotten all I deserve for my debt; tar me new feathers
Starve me and... render my rights as a member
leave me dismembered... char me with ember
-Splendor, you could be raising your scepter,
With a hand gesture, then I’m a spectre
Grace falls down on me!
my ambrosia’s a potent potion
of a flow precocious, atoned and focused
devotion; now you’re so prone to notice
(He anoints the mic) -right... before I hold it
Go, disciples, coast to coast and
Open... up your heart to the hurt and hopeless
Don’t fold -no matter how steep the slope is
We’ll overcome how tough the road is
Everyone run till your soles are molten
Not to us but the Lord has spoken
EntEr the heart like the soul’s an ocean
Dive in- Grace plus hope in motion.
Yes, it’s a place where the hope is alive
Open your eyes in the mind of a child
Until I’m whole again...
you pick me up all over again... over and over and over again.
Grace falls down on me!
from 2009 - 2016,
released April 16, 2017
Singing: Glenda & Gabbie Gonzales, Kuya Paul (@kuyapaulpoetry)